on the way

have you ever felt you killed somebody because you prayed to whatever entity you believe in that their suffering should end that they should be allowed to rest

because the other day i talked to my grandma about a relative of ours who was in hospice care

and while my grandma has this outlook on life and death that some old people have – that death, at some point, is mercy - i had hoped until then that he might get better again

but during that conversation something inside me realized that his time probably has come and in my thoughts i wished him a good last journey a safe trip to whatever afterlife may be waiting for him

he died that night and i was not surprised

#fragments